2002-07-17 @ 4:22 p.m.
thanks, i feel like an idiot.
so i feel like a moron for liking kyle.
but i feel like a BIGGER moron for getting all stupid and melodramatic about liking kyle.
what a dilemma.
i don't want to stop liking him, because the optimist in me says that there's a chance.
but i know the solution! i'll stop thinking about liking him. see, this will be simple. beginning next week, rachel, melissa, and myself are going to dive head-first into this band thing. melissa doesn't want to be with ray anymore, she's got a new crush (thank the gods). i figure all that i have to do is stop talking about atention deficit at all. which should be simple enough. just absorb myself in other stuff.
i had a meeting with elizabeth, from A.R.T.S. for people this afternoon. read: volunteer work. i figure if i immerse myself in a) finding a job, b) doing volunteer work, c) the band, and d) finding cool friends, this whole "wa kyle doesn't like me wa" thing will pass.
there are tons of things i could do to help myself out, too. see, i even made a list.
-become friends with lucinda again. despite her frequent bitchiness, i kind of miss her.
-do lots of volunteer/charity work
-learn to play the bass more
-find a job
-when school starts, focus on schoolwork
-become friends with katie again. we haven't talked in like forever.
-hang out with morgan more often
-hang out with courtney more often
-clean my house. like, crazy obsessive cleaning.
i'm sure i could think of more stuff, too. see? i can get over this kyle thing.
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