2002-04-15 @ 1:29 a.m.
fuck texas education laws.
i have decided that i am going to drop out of school and get my GED. this can't affect my future too horribly. i'm going to community college for two years, for chrissakes. it's not like they won't accept me. i mean, yes, i do want a good future, of course i do. but a good future doesn't necessarily mean i have to go through hell for the next year. so what if i don't have a garland high school diploma? big deal. as long as i have a GED, i can still get into community college. i've done my research - i know this. for some strange reason, my dad does not require me to go to school, but he won't let me do distance learning (aka homeschooling). i can't understand why. he always promised me that he would ALWAYS tell me why he'll let me or not let me do something. but he won't explain it to me this time. and that annoys me so much. i don't yell at him when i try to discuss it with him. i've always had a pretty good relationship with my father, so now that i try to discuss something that we have very differing viewpoints on, it's really rough to have him yell at me. which he does, of course.unfortunately, i can't get my GED without parental permission until i'm 18. and that really bites my ass. because my dad thinks that anyone who doesn't get a high school diploma and who gets a GED is a hoodlum. he uses that word, hoodlum. stupid parents.
it would cost $60 for me to get my GED. i have $60, i have $60 in my pocket right now. well, not my POCKET, my wallet, but whatever. i am in possession of $60. money is not a problem. it's the whole "need parental permission" thing that is the problem. not to mention, i have to be 17, and not enrolled in a high school. AND have parental permission.
why do my parents expect so much of me? okay, so maybe they don't expect SO MUCH of me, but they do expect more than i would like for them to. they expect me to go to school, graduate, and go to university. I DON'T WANT TO DO THAT. i want to drop out, get my goddamn GED, go to community college while all of my friends are seniors, or better yet, get a JOB while all of my friends are seniors, maybe dabble in some community college classes. that way, i will be earning money while all of my friends are wasting time in those goddamn desks at school.
i have it all mapped out - get my GED in august or september. get a job in september. work full-time until december. in january, enroll in a few community college classes, continue working. in may, go see my friends graduate, maybe go to the prom if one of my friends invites me (despite all the insults to prom that i do, i really do kind of want to go). work full-time in the summer. go down to part-time come august, start at community college. in 2005, i will be completed with all of my basic courses, and i can go on to UTD, major in journalism, and move on with my life, AWAY from my parents.
hell, i could even go straight to community college after getting my GED, and work part-time the whole time. that way i will be finished with all my basics when my friends are completing their freshman year at college.
i don't even care anymore. i just want to get my way for once. i think i've thought this out logically and completely, and there is no reason in the world why my parents should not at least listen to what i have to say.
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